#10 - circling the drain

i just placed a refill order on my pain med, with no money to pay for it. a nice rubber check to float until... i have no idea. i need my med to function properly. and i have an interview tomorrow AM... which was supposed to be yesterday but because i have gabapentin withdrawals... i'm all out of hope, except for my interview. and even that is iffy. i'm about to break another rule by driving w/ expired tabs, which i can not afford, either. nor $18.50 for a new driver's license. i know i'll have to pay IN for taxes this year, too. and i can't even file until i have money. i've felt near-tears multiple times this week, but the tears don't come. if only my emotional numbness transfered to the physical.